Posted: July 20th, 2008 under design, digital journal, personal, photoshop.
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The star is inspired by: And the quote is from this song: Radiohead - Lucky

Posted: July 17th, 2008 under personal.
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by lyaka-lyaka at livejournal:

made by thewiz627 at ebay:

Posted: July 17th, 2008 under design, inspiration, youtube.
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* she talks like a circus
* kelly macdonald’s disco outfit from trainspotting
* chuck palahniuk quotes
* i cannot give anyone advice because i don’t even know how to help myself. i am taking responsibility for no one and fuck-all.

… thinking about how - i really do not want to be close to anyone. i just want to be a mystery and all that. and i just hate warm, close, snuggly emotions. i have too much love. but it’s not a personal kind of thing. it’s like.. universal and humanitarian. it’s anonymous. that’s why i want god to speak to me and through me. i don’t want responsibility. i don’t want anything to be about me. i always thought i wanted to be known. i thought that was my greatest desire. it’s actually quite the opposite. .. i don’t want -anyone- to know me. i only want them to know whatever persona i portray myself as. so that i can be everyone. “in my mind, i’m everyone.” .. it’s not that i’m afraid to be myself. again, it’s quite the opposite. i’m afraid to be anything but myself.

i want to sing my songs and cover songs. w/ my hair a tangled mermaid mess, all hiding half of my face. scraps of fabric and lace. a true hot mess. tattoos covering my arms. late nights. deep thoughts. art. water and smoke. admirers and mysteries. “get fucked up and fuck up you.” no regrets. poetry and prose. scribbles and collages. the smell of ink and vodka. a random playlist. the sidewalks and pavement. streetlights. finding places to hide. tripping and falling. with scrapes on my legs and perhaps a bruise or two. i want these things to feel beautiful and real without that lingering shame and suspicion that i’m living a cliche. “you make me real.” but by “you” i don’t mean a person. just abstract things. cause i really cannot handle real, living “you’s” anymore.

Posted: July 17th, 2008 under personal.
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